I got a new boyfriend! Funny story, actually. I guess he started liking me when we almost kissed that one Thursday before winter break at the soccer game.

- Hour later edit. -
I actually don’t know how to start this post, really. I’m just gonna write all the things on my mind about the subject.
So Martin likes me, right. He thinks I’m funny, cute, and great to be around. He’s a good guy too, and all, but I’m not sure I want to be in a relationship with him. I’m willing to give it a shot. I just over think things, and I’m over thinking this.
Helen says it’s cute, Martin & I being together. Karla, who I don’t know why started talking to me, told me to just end it already or I’ll regret it. Alex was telling me that she felt trapped when Beaver asked her to Homecoming and I think that’s how I felt at lunch.

Okay, so he asked me out at lunch. Oh my gosh, I should’ve like signaled someone to help me before Martin pulled me away. I saw him coming, too. How the fuck did he find me? I’ve been so good about hiding from people.
Not that getting into this relationship was a mistake, I just wish I had more time to think about it.

You’re moving anyways! Lol! Why ask me out!
He was telling me yesterday how he was gonna move. And that we should try to be together. I didn’t know how to respond. He was saying how worth it it is, and we won’t regret it, and yah. I kinda tried to avoid the question today. He tried talking to me during our spare time in history. It wasn’t really spare time, I had an R.T. to do. And I told him that. I didn’t walk with him on our way to second period. I usually walk faster and just leave anyways. I walk really fast.
After he asked me out, we held hands on our way to third period. Oh, he’s in my third period. Daniel is, too! He was actually staring at us from where he hangs at lunch when Martin and I were talking. And he came to talk to me when Martin & I were holding hands. Talk about HAWKward.

Yesterday, I asked Amanda for advice, but it didn’t help. When Martin asked me out, I choked and just said yeah.
It’s creepy how a bunch of people found out! Even Isidora! It must’ve been Martin ‘cause I just tweeted about it. And I told Miko & Mat right after it happened. And Grace obviously saw us holding hands. And Alex saw us talking.

The thing I really feel weird about is that I think that people think I still like that other guy I liked. But I stopped liking him over winter break & why would I tell anyone, you know? And I don’t want people to think “Oh, she’s with Martin when she likes so and so..” I know I shouldn’t care what people think, but I do, a lot actually.

And then Gio was pushing Martin to ask me out and so was Jhair. And I dunno, it was like, rushed. Or forced, is the better word.

I wonder what my friends think of this relationship. Lemme know! lol
My uncle thinks i’ma horny teenager, hoe, lol.

I think I am gonna give it a shot, though. I mean, I gotta last longer than Karla, haha.
Speaking of which, I wonder what she thinks about this. I hope she doesn’t think I’m going out with Martin just to get back at her or something because she was Martin’s last girlfriend.

I hope my mom finds out so she can somehow end it with her over exaggerations before this continues.

So much confusion and doubt came with this, I honesty don’t know what to do. Gah. Help me, yo.
At least tomorrow is Friday. sigh*